us tanmayataa men
tumhaare vakSh men mu(n)h chhipaa kar
lajaate hue
main ne jo-jo kahaa thaa
pataa naheen us men kuchh arth thaa bhee yaa naheen :
aamr-manjariyon se bharee huee maang ke darp men
main ne samast jagat ko
apanee besudhee ke
ek kShaN men leen karane kaa
jo daavaa kiyaa thaa - pataa naheen
vah sach thaa bhee yaa naheen:
jo kuchh ab bhee is man men kasakataa hai
is tan men kaa(n)p-kaa(n)p jaataa hai
vah svapn thaa yaa yathaarth
- ab mujhe yaad naheen
par itanaa jaroor jaanatee hoo(n)
ki is aam kee Daalee ke neeche
jahaa(n) khaḌe ho kar tum ne mujhe balaayaa thaa
ab bhee mujhe aa kar baḌee shaanti milatee hai
***
n,
main kuchh sochatee naheen
kuchh yaad bhee naheen karatee
sirph meree anamanee, bhaTakatee u(n)galiyaa(n)
mere anajaane, dhool men tumhaaraa
vah naam likh jaatee hain
jo main ne pyaar ke gahanatam kShaNon men
khud rakhaa thaa
aur jise ham donon ke alaavaa
koee jaanataa hee naheen
aur jyon hee sachet ho kar
apanee u(n)galiyon kee
is dhRShTataa ko jaan paatee hoo(n)
chaunk kar use miTaa detee hoo(n)
(use miTaate duःkh kyon naheen hotaa kanu!
kyaa ab main keval do yantron kaa punj-maatr hoo(n)?
- do paraspar vipareet yantr -
un men se ek bin anumati naam likhataa hai
doosaraa use binaa hichak miTaa detaa hai!)
***
teesare pahar
chupachaap yahaa(n) chhaayaa men baiThatee hoo(n)
aur havaa oopar taazee naram Tahaniyon se,
aur neeche kapolon par jhoolatee meree rookhee alakon
se khel karatee hai
aur main aa(n)kh moond kar baiTh jaatee hoo(n)
aur kalpanaa karanaa chaahatee hoo(n) ki
us din barasate men jis chhaune ko
apane aa(n)chal men chhipaa kar laayee thee
vah aaj kitanaa, kitanaa, kitanaa mahaan ho gayaa hai
lekin main kuchh naheen soch paatee
sirph -
jahaa(n) tum ne mujhe amit pyaar diyaa thaa
vaheen baiTh kar kankaḌ, patte, tinake, TukaḌe chunatee rahatee hoo(n)
tumhaare mahaan banane men
kyaa meraa kuchh TooT kar bikhar gayaa hai kanu!
vah sab ab bhee
jyon kaa tyon hai
din Dhale aam ke naye bauron kaa
chaaron or apanaa maayaajaal phenkanaa
jaal men ulajh kar meraa bebas chale aanaa
nayaa hai
keval meraa
soonee maa(n)g aanaa
soonee maa(n)g, shithil charaN, asamarpitaa
jyon kaa tyon lauT jaanaa ........
us tanmayataa men - aam-manjaree se sajee maa(n)g ko
tumhaare vakSh men chhipaa kar lajaate hue
besudh hote-hote
jo main ne sunaa thaa
kyaa us men kuchh bhee arth naheen thaa?
